Are you feeling stuck? What are you afraid to lose?

Needing to hold on is a sneaky habit of ours.

Like a puppeteer in the shadows that masterfully moves those puppets on a string, so is our fear of loss and need to hold on. It plays out our choices and actions from the shadows of our hearts, twisting our choices, views of situations, and the possibilities we could have.

Ironically this fear that convinces us we stay with nothing if we don't hold on reduces what we can have and be filled by.

It also reduces us.

We stay disconnected from the power and abundance we have and carry within. Instead of making our lives fuller, it lessens our sense of connection and the trust we dare to have in ourselves and others.

We become and feel like a puppet, never enough on our own. Never genuinely able to be who we are and be loveable. We are always needing to play a part and fulfill an expectation. Playing that part means we are convinced we can, and should, show only a part of ourselves. It convinces us that we need to hide more of who we are. Hide that which will stand in the master plan of our puppeteer.

This fear has received its place of "honor" somewhere in our childhood. It is often found above our heads. We bend to it. We are pulled upwards and lose the connection to our legs and sense of being grounded.

We gave power to that fear when we needed to be held, guided, and taken care of by others to survive.

It made sense when the radius of our world was as small as the distance; we could walk on our own when following our surroundings' rules and ideas was part of how we learned to cope better and survive in the limited environment around us.

Would you like to cut those strings of fear?

Would you like to experience life while fully engaged in all of it? Would you like to trust yourself and others who love you? Would you like to let love in?

If you do, are you willing to investigate those parts of yourself and your life where you feel stuck or far away from the ease and fulfillment you want?

Are you ready to stand on your legs and meet those old fears without reacting to them?

Are you willing to meet that puppeteer and cut those strings? It is not about ripping them out quickly or asking you to erase the need to be held like that. You needed that guidance. You needed that puppeteer. Not more.

There will be moments where the grip of fear and the movement known to you so well, led by the puppeteer, will feel like it is your only safe choice. Their voice and whispers will echo in your mind as if these are the words of truth.

You will have to train for a while not to fall into their hands.

You will have to master not obeying it.

Try not to respond to that fear but let it flow within you.

Not letting the puppeteer take it away from you. Nor believing that it can do so.

It is your fear, and as such, it is a part of who you are. However, when you stop fighting it, it can magically transform and reveal the beauty of who you are and what you truly deserve.

Are you willing to shine the light on that backstage area of your life? Don't be mindlessly innocent; The puppeteer will not like it.

But if you shine that light repeatedly, you will be the one who is shining.

The one who gets all the fulfillment. The one who discovers their fullness.

When you start to shine the light of awareness and attention onto that fear, revealing how you hold it within you: the way you obey it, believe it, and keep your body in it, you can discover a door. A door that leads out into the unknown of who you are and the opportunities to find all that you long for. Step by step, as much as you are willing to take each time.

Don't expect a grand Exist: You are stepping out of the theater. You are leaving the stage to now applause but your heartbeat and freedom.

Instead, you will have to "disobey" again and again. Each time you discover those strings. Each time you feel you are being pulled upwards and into your head as if having no choice.

This is the moment the puppeteer starts the show. And with it, the usual play, The same thoughts, actions, and outcome that must be met at the end, the exact role you play.

This is your moment. Your moment to stop. The moment to stop believing you have to go there.

You do not need to know what to do instead. It is first about not going there and stopping the show. This is how you cut those often-invisible strings.

Sometimes, you will not immediately know where to go, what to do, or even who you are. Mind you that the puppeteer held that identity for you till now. Then, they gave you validation rewards, a self-fulfilling prophecy of how not enough you are, and replacing your sense of self with how others see you or what you accomplish.

Could you bare a moment longer in that state? The moment after, you cut those fear strings.

Make sure you identify and let go of how you embody that part of a puppet, how you fight that fear, and how you try to do everything not to meet your fear.

The door will reveal itself. And with it, the choice. A sense of space. You might need to let go and stop needing "the" outcome.

Without those strings of fear, you can better cope with difficulties, challenges, and conflicts, as you are no longer being moved from the shadows.

You will not need to hold on out of fear of losing but act out of love and your grownup choices.

Try to see where this investigation takes you. What old needs and fears are holding you?

When do you give power to other people?

What do you fear will happen if you do not act as "expected"?

Are you ready to weave some cords of love?

Are you willing to let them be radiating from your heart, even if, on the way, you may meet rejections or be tempted to give that puppeteer the power to take over?

Are you willing to start and feel your body? Are you ready to breathe deeply and move more? Not to obey anything but to choose?

Today I leave you with these thoughts and ideas to experiment with, and I am curious about where they will take you.

Yours,

Anna

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