It is all about WHEN and not about IF

We have arrived to the new year.

Outside there are still turbulences and unexpected changes. Some are good, some are not as much. In this past year it felt as if we were thrown down a waterfall and hit the waters below. Before we manage to find the current that may calmly take us, we twirl around. The waters seem to spritz everywhere and may even enter violently our mouth and eyes. We may feel we are drowning, when the fear takes over.

In every shift and change, in every transition the moment we hit those waters, is such a crucial moment. This is the beginning.

The moment before we are clear and stable about what we want, it may often seem as if all out of our control. The time when all of our emotions and self-sabotaging ideas seem to be in an upheaval.

I learned to savor those times. To view them as the ones that bring the best out of me and life. Afterwards traveling the calming current is a complete different pleasure (not necessity – which is where freedom lies.)

In everything we want to achieve or change we meet that moment. At times we may notice it strongly and at others, maybe less. It is a short moment of a crisis. Of a shift. Of a choice. Of leaving the known. Mostly before things seem to turn out to the best, before we get what we want, and touch more of who we are, we are in that place: being thrown to the waters after sliding down the wishing waterfall.

It is a moment we can train to give in to what is moving in and through us, so that we can find that clarity and connection to our will, inner integrity and purpose. The shift is not in our minds. It is when we let ourselves become fully “wet” by the dive. Won’t always look good to our Egos but it will be the honesty of who we are that will free us to care less about how we are viewed.

By being aware of this moment, we can make it more potent and clear. We can use it better.

Think of the beginning of 2021 as being this moment:

You were released from the tight jaw of 2020. It spat you into the deep new waters of 2021. Into the depth of the waters of who you are, of life. It may be cold and dark for a moment.

Now it is your chance to master that twirl. That moment of gushing waters. To expand and get further with all of what you want and are.

It is the time to let all of your known self and known reality shake and twist. To renew itself.

The time to let go of the illusion of control that you have created to save yourself from past drownings.

You now have the chance to meet the forceful and fierce embrace of life when you allow it to enter through all of the holes of your body.

To make sure you are not swallowing the water out of panic or wrong timing driven by self-doubt, you need to find the grounding with in you.

It might seem dramatic and you may ask yourself if a shift cannot be sweet and pleasant?

It can and it is. The shift itself is. But remember it is the short moment before that is so fierce, no matter if it lasts 10 seconds, 24 hours or a week.

Here is how you can create that shift – to fall into those new waters using the water fall of your longings:

First take some deep breathes. Do that being ready to sink into your pelvis and greet your bones.

Breath and let all sensations and feelings rush through you.

Make sure that you do not resist whatever is around you or with in you. It is as if you want to make yourself heavy in these waters. You give your willing bod to the currents that your mind cannot identify yet.

Then remember something you want to be/have and best to experience in life.

Start by shifting the way you relate to it, to the next moment: “When XXXX happens..“ rather than holding on to a thin rope of hope “If XXX will happen”.

Anchor that experience with in yourself through sinking into your pelvis and bones even more.

Breathing and keeping that “heavy” sensation, the one of lack of resistance to what is.

Feel your feet on the ground now. And after few moments of breath of landing start walking slowly towards that place where this experience is waiting for you.

In yourself remember that it is not about if you get there, just a matter of when you go get there.

And once you immerse in that, you might already feel and perceive how this yarned for experience is already leaking into where you are now. That the water is all connected. That you can start and follow that current. That this becomes your guiding rope. This is what connects you and pulls you to the place you know is waiting for you. To your place in this world. (which is here).

And maybe you can promise to yourself or just to life that you are not going to leave this river before you have reached that place. You are not going to die without ever being your true self.

Remember that 2020 “spat you out” exactly to what you need to free, pursue and let go of in 2021. You were given to the custody now of 2021 who will embrace you and lead you to the shores you were longing for, if you take the dive.

I wish you a wonderful and magical dive,

Anna

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